saddest part..

i'm really sori for what i've done to you..yah,i know you just can't forgive me just like that..and i understand that..maybe this time, i have to let you go..you're now free..and most of all you're not goin to feel pain,regrets anymore at hindi kna mgtitiis..you're not goin to make any sacrifices..just to be with me..sori for the wrong things,bad things that i did to you..i never realize that you also have feelings to feel this things..m really really sori..i want to make it up to you but i just don't know how..because you don't trust me anymore..m letting you go sani..thanks for everythin..i really won't forget you..un kakulitan mo,un lambing mo,un pagaalaga mo when m sick or not,lahat lahat..i really won't forget you..maybe the best thing that i can give to you is your happiness..that's why m letting you go..i know that through this past years,you really didn't enjoy your life because of me..i'm sori that i just gave you too much regrets in your life and sorrows..and you won't feel the same again anymore..thank you so much for everythin..i love you,yah i really love you but i just can't take the guilt any longer,at habang kayaq pa..m letting you go..m really really sori for everythin..maybe by this time,you're happy now..i love you so much sani..you're my everythin,this is not obssesion but i truly love you..i'm sori for everythin..i hope you can forgive me..let's just try to turn back times..the times that we didn't know each other yet..yah, i hope i can do that..for the last time,i want to say sori for everythin..sori kace hinde ka naging masaya sa piling ko..sori poh..i' won't forget you..

♥♥ Is der any surprise?? ♥♥

ahmmm..let me think..yeah is der any surprise for me tomorrow?oh i can't help thinkin' about it..and maybe am right of what ur thinkin too,why am i thinkin of surprises..ehehe,lam mo na un:D bdayq kace bukas,ehehe..it's my 23rd bday tomorrow..yeah,am turnin 23 yrs here on earth..ehehe and i'm blessed reachin that..really blessed,am blessed because of my family,blessed having sani in my life (my boyfriend) and friends..ehehe,am a lil bit excited u know..ehehe,sabe kce ni sani saken he has a surprise for me..ahmmm,anu kaya un??ehehe..well,lets see tomorrow then,ehehe..chao!

♥♥ What am I afraid of ♥♥

..yeah,one thing that i'm afraid of is, when sani, my boyfriend decided to left me..:( yah,aaminin ko takot talaga akong iwanan nya ko..tkot akong iwan nya ko..i don't why, tkot na takot talagaq..sa lahat kce ng naging bfq,he's different,he's unique..i don't know kun bakit,yah masaya syang kasama..at magaan syang kasama, hinde ka maboboring, even he's not feeling well he assures na mapapasaya nyaq, he's so maalaga and malambing..even though m not showy [ dq kce aq showy pag nglalambing ] naiintndhan nyaq,cguro aq na ung pinakatanga sa buong mundo kun iiwan nyaq..yah,kun mgdecide man syan iwan nyaq i know it's my damn fault..the prob is in me..yesterday i did this bullshit thing na kinaglet nya..he's so galet to the extend na naduntok nya un pader..i was so scared when he said iiwan na nyaq..:( alamq d sya ngbibiro dat tym,galet na galet sya..i was hugging him but he refuse me to hug me back and said stay there,wag kan lumapit! fuck,i was damn scared,iyak aq ng iyak kce dna nyaq pinapansin..iniimagineq kce sariliq pag nawala c sani saken,damn i can't..dq kayan mawala c sani..i am really sori for what i did,m really really sori..cguro maybe an hour,buti nalan nakinig c sani saken,i told him that we have to talk..buti nalan nkipagusap sya,and time i realized how sani loves me that much..i hate my damn self kce dq maibigy sa kanya un pagmamahal na binibigay nya saken..i do love sani dat much though hindeq maipakita at maiparamdam sa kanya kun ganoq sya kamahal..m just that so stupid na dq kayan gawin..i really hate myself for that,khit masakit un mga cnabe nya saken wala un saken kce it's my damn fault naman..he said he's sorry for what he says sabeq ok lan un..i do love sani,at ayaw kong ngtitiis sya ng dahil lan saken, dq lamq gagawinq kun mawala sya saken..buti nlan later dat hour,ngkabati din kame:) ngsosori talagaq sa kanya,sana d na maulit un nagawaq..kce pag nagkataon dq kakayaning mawala saken c sani totally..i just can't.

♥♥ After work ♥♥

.hayz kapagod...talaga,buti nlan my internet,nawawala pagodq:D kce from qc to parañaque it's been fuckin' tiring talaga..kun bakit kce lumipat pa kme eh..ampf! wala na kong ginawa sa buhay ko since i've been here in manila kundi magbiyahe..i've been workin for 8 hrs, at apat na oras na pagbibiyahe..but happy naman,i met a lot of damn people..ehehe^^damn people kce makukulet,meron din un mga tahimik,ung mga tao na fil mo tao tlaga pero hinde..ehehe^^akala mo lan..